I haven't been blogging lately because life happens. It has been a horrible last few weeks. I thought that everything was getting better but it hasn't gotten any better. I hate my life even more now. I'm  older than before shouldn't I have more to live for? I thought it would be better. I truly believed that someone would make my life better somehow. I'm naive. If life doesn't get better soon, I don't know what I'll do. I'm going out of my mind trying to be perfect and everything people want me to but I can't. I know I am a failure. Okay? No need to rub it in my face. I get it. I was good enough for you, but only for so long. Guess my luck is up. Sorry I wasted yo