Unhappy

well she's gone when i awake
left a letter
saying everything was a mistake
and i'm alone
but it's alright, cause i understand
i could tell everything's not fine
it's never alright
to push away
i'm not as blind as you may think
and i'm tired of all that is
and i know that this time
it's not all in my head


I may never be perfect enough for your parents, or even mine. But what gets me through the night is knowing that I have always been good enough for you. That's all that matters. I'm sorry that I have been rather unhappy lately. It's hard trying to measure up to my older sister. I hate the comparisons between us because they cause me and her to drift apart and begin to hate each other. We have always had to compete against each other and I am done competing. I never win because it isn't a fair fight. I love you baby. Thank you for being everything I need and everything that is safe. I don't want to imagine a single day without you. 

--Unhappy-Thriving Ivory--