Am I the reason why you tossed and turned last night?
Everything's such a blur, it didn't come out right.
All of the sudden it's cold and we're falling apart.
No this can't be, please don't leave me alone
And I guess we're really over, so come over, i'm not over it.
Late night you make me feel like i'm desperate, I'm not desperate.
Oh, a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it.
I've never been a fan of long good-byes.
I'm at the finish line and you're just way too far behind.
In the morning I got in a fight with myself, I got the bruises to prove it.
Then I swallowed your words and spit them right back out.
Tonight I have tried to stay happy but nothing is keeping me happy. I miss him. I need him right now. I don’t know why I need him so bad but I do. And the saddest part is he won’t even realize it until I have already done something stupid. I wish I could forget everything that has happened since I moved here. Because before we moved everything was PERFECT. I was perfect. And life was perfect. But now I am barely stable and nothing can keep me sane. I have come to that realization that nothing will save me in the end. It’s pretty pathetic that I don’t want to live without happiness and that I have already given up. I don’t want to try to be happy. Happiness should come to people it shouldn’t have to be earned. I don’t know why I don’t deserve to be happy. But I haven’t been happy for a long time. The only times I have been truly happy is when I was doing something I shouldn't have. Which is stupid. I’m done with trying to please everyone because no one pleases me. Screw happy cookie cutter lives. Screw trying. I’m a failure. And I don’t give a damn.
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