well she's gone when i awake
left a letter
saying everything was a mistake
and i'm alone
but it's alright, cause i understand
i could tell everything's not fine
it's never alright
to push away
i'm not as blind as you may think
and i'm tired of all that is
and i know that this time
it's not all in my head



I may never be perfect enough for your parents, or even mine. But what gets me through the night is knowing that I have always been good enough for you. That's all that matters. I'm sorry that I have been rather unhappy lately. It's hard trying to measure up to my older sister. I hate the comparisons between us because they cause me and her to drift apart and begin to hate each other. We have always had to compete against each other and I am done competing. I never win because it isn't a fair fight. I love you baby. Thank you for being everything I need and everything that is safe. I don't want to imagine a single day without you. 

--Unhappy-Thriving Ivory--
 
We're too far out we're in too deep
And we've got miles to go before we can sleep
I said, we've been walking a thin line
You've got one hand on the devil baby and one hand in mine
But don't let go no it's not too late you know

Hold on we're gonna make it if it takes all night
Hearts racing like a rocket at the speed of light
Don't fight it we've been running for far too long
We're going back where we belong
So hold on we got our wings and we're chasing the wind
Farewell to all the places that we have been
And if it takes us all night long
We're going back where we belong

So we'll build temples in our heads
When we've grown frail and all our bones are of lead
We've been walking a winding road
Let's go, no footsteps to follow baby and no signs to guide us home
Don't let go, no it's not too late you know

Hold on we're gonna make it if it takes all night
Hearts racing like a rocket at the speed of light
Don't fight it we've been running for far too long
We're going back to where we belong
So hold on we got our wings and we're chasing the wind





I just want to hold you close to me. I just want to be yours forever. Why is life been so unfair towards us. I hate it. 

--Where We Belong-Thriving Ivory--
 
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please


I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is your's
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart, my heart is your's


These past couple of days have just about killed me. I hated not being able to stop everything that has been happening. I hate this nonsense. It is ridiculous. I hate it. My life is slowly going downhill and he doesn't understand how much I need him. But its fine because soon enough he will realize. 

--My Heart-Paramore--
 
Ive got to save this night
Got to get my head on right for you
Im falling off sideways
Ever since I saw your face
I thought a lot about my place in here
Im nothing but ordinary
Every dream in my head
Every word that ive read
Everything that Ive thought
Thought but I should’ve said
All the things that Ive done
All the races Ive run
Comes to together in one
But I don’t know yet, I don’t know yet
I don’t know what’s to come
You make every part of me
Stand up and fight
To save the whole world
Turn what’s dark into light
You make every part of me
Want to do more
To save the whole world
Be the one you adore
The more time that passes by
It all becomes much clearer why you are
Different from everyone
This world confuses me
But ever since the fuse in me has lit
I’ve wondered what I could do

It’s the way you are





--Save The World-SkyRocket Love--
 
Not enough good intentions
This is not what I really am
Let go of you, thoughts of you
These bad dreams are caving in
Before you go
You have to know
I never meant
Hold you down
Things have changed
Lets move on
Within me you can fall apart
Leaving pieces of your lonely heart




I'm trying so hard to be the girl he needs. The girl of his dreams but I can't do it. This life isn't worth living when he walks away. I can't breathe, I start to suffocate. I can’t survive this life I was given. It just doesn’t work how I want it to. I know life isn’t fair but why can’t I have a single good day? I go home and everything changes. I just want to scream but if I did no one would care.

--Novacaine-SkyRocket Love--