Cause I'll be there in the back of your mind
From the day we met 'til you were making me cry
And its just to bad, cause you've already had the best days
The best days of your life.
I hate her. She has wrecked the most beautiful part of my existence. How could I not know that you weren't perfect? Why was I so dumb and naive? Put me out of my misery because thats all this is. She's just another girl to compare me to. I'm just a prize for you. I am nothing special anymore. So thanks random girl I have never met. Thanks for whoring around with the only guy I have loved like this. Thanks for making my life meaningless. And thanks for taking the only thing I love about life away.
You know you can't give me what I need
And even though you mean so much to me
I can't wait through everything
I'm trying, I really am. I know you can't believe me but its becoming harder to be the same person I was before. Everything is being second-guessed. And I know that is going to kill you but I need to be honest. I am trapped. I have no where to go and I think you know it. Why does it feel so bad? I don't want this relationship to end but I need it to get better. If you can't trust my friends to be good people then why do you trust me? Think about this. Please think before you speak. For me.
You're the kind of reckless that should send me running.
Babe I know lately I have been harder to deal with. This depression isn't something I planned on. And I wish I wasn't so depressed. Everyday that I don't see your face, is another nail in my coffin. I know we both live such crazy lives but baby I really love you and I know one day it will be okay to be us again. You are always saying how you are sorry, well I'm not. Why would I be sorry? Or why are you sorry? You are better that is all that matters. I would rather it be bumpy now than later because soon enough it won't just be you that I am worrying about. And when that time comes I need to know that I won't be alone. Your healthy, thats what I am thankful for this year. I love you baby. I always have and I always will.
I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on your hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do
Okay so by now people should know not to dare me to do something. Because I will shock the pants off of you by actually doing the unsaid.(: I am in love with you so I don't care how childish or immature you think I am. I don't care about making unattractive faces at you because I am yours forever baby. It is far to late to back out now. I love you babe. I love everything that you do and say. I always have and I always will
I'm fading, I'm broken inside
I've wasted the love of my life
I'm losing it
With every move I die
When your friends tell you something isn't right about your boyfriend, who do you believe? I believed them. I kinda still do babe. I mean come on. Is it that far-fetched that you wouldn't hit on someone?I hate to doubt you but you were already ticked off at me. And we both know that when we get ticked off we do stupid things. The only thing I know for sure is that, that should be the last time anything like that happens. If it isn't then we have a lot to work on.
And I don't know where I've been
And I don't know what I'm into
And I don't know what I've done to me
I am worth more than secrets. Maybe last year I was okay with us being a secret and sneaking around but not this year. I am either good enough to be open about or I am not yours. No secrets. Maybe she was okay with all of the secrets because she had a few of her own but I am not HER! Please realize that last year was a mistake and lying about us was the worst thing I ever did to myself. Nothing that happened last year meant a damn thing to you. It is very obvious to everyone.
Why the hell would you ask me those four words? It isn't a joke to me. Maybe its fun to screw around with my mind but I don't have to put up with it.
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